The LOVE THAT WAS NEVER SATISFYING..

One day, I, on my way to School, made a strange incident, In fact a beautiful incident. Someone came towards me and said, “excuse me somebody wants to meet you.” “Who”, said, I. “a gal.” replied. I didn’t understand. I smiled away as if a joke, and stepped for my School.”The next day, to my surprise the same person appeared in front of me again and said, “Sorry to keep bothering you, but she really wants to meet you.” In addition, left a chit to me, I was so foolish; I didn’t even bother to ask why? most importantly the caller’s name. However, the chit reads like this, “Life is only worth living once. Hi…ii, my name is Percy Shelley, and I’m sorry for the absurd behavior. But Please help me, the world is turning around me, while I am standing still. Be an angel and save me from this emptiness and loneliness. I’ll wait for you at the cafe. I believe you’d come.” why? I never knew. However, the phrase ‘Angel’, ‘Save me’, kept questioning…, cos I am just an ordinary being like her and not an angel.after the class, as I walk on, for home, I found my legs leading me towards her. I didn’t realize until she came and said, “hi, I knew you’d come. Thank you for coming, have a seat.” And continued saying, “life is pretty much unpredictable, we never know what the future is in store for us.” She introduced herself once again “My name is Percy Shelley.” U?” call me “Margrit” ”do I know you?” I asked. “nope you don’t know this lonely gal. Nor does she know you… Can she be your fren…pliz”. She Replied. She did all the talking I was speechless. I kept staring at her. She was beautiful, her voice as if an angel’s, so soft, long black hair, perfectly chiseled nose and eyes that spoke a thousand unspoken words. Everything in her was perfect…..but there was a flicker of something in them, I couldn’t define. That day was the only day when she spoke so much. After which I could hardly hear her angelic voice. Now, by the beginning of autumn, I, Margrit and Percy dated regularly. I became addicted to her and to her beautiful quotes. A day seems incomplete w/o her and chits, pondering she too felt the same. Every day she writes beautiful quotes for me, they came from the heart and cut through the heart. ,… God knew, how happy I was.. She was right and so the time was.! “I love you, not because of what you have done for me, but because of what I feels.. I care for you, not because you need care but because I want to.. I'm always here for you, not because I want you to be with me but because I want to be with you...” said She, never knowing what she did for me.. Most… importantly!!!.Our dating went on…...I never realize when Percy became apart me. I could hardly breathe w/o her. She did something to me, I couldn’t define, yet it was the best part of me, I could remember. Percy taught me how to love someone truly, and erased the idea of flirting with many..!!!! After every end of our dates, Percy thank me and repeated the same quote to me, “If I had to count the reasons why I love you and why I'm so in love with you...I'd have to count forever.” I never realize why she repeated the same, every now and then.Every day Me and Percy dated in the same place, set beneath the same tree…. We talk about love, stories, movies, shared our past memories and likeness, etc.! Besides that, we didn’t talked about any other thing. We just lived in a world of our own. One day Percy turned, looking into my eye and said, “I want something of yours, Margrit? Write to me something….anything, so that I might take it with me.” “Sure, I’d love to!” I replied. But what to write, I didn’t know. Writing was something I always hated. But for her sake I tried to…! , in fact wrote many….she was glad to have them, so was I to write to her. Every day we both set beneath the same tree and wrote quotes/chits to each other, though nigh. Through Percy I’ve learned that even I could write beautifully…Though not that gud enough as compared to hers, and could be so romantic. Everything was good and perfect in our circle of frenshipAlas! Only God knew, what went wrong? She grew cold, talked strange and wrote strange. “I’ll take with me everything gifted by you when I leave, and will read it every day cos I love you every day and I miss you every day. I’ll take the love you gave me, I’ll take the memories you spent with me, I’ll take the quotes/chits you wrote to me. I still remember every word you’ve spoken even that I’ll leave not behind” Percy said, then tears roll down her cheek... Mergrit, “Percy, You asked me to be an Angel and save you, I couldn’t get it, But I came though I am not an angel..!! Your eyes speak a thousand unspoken words I am sorry I caN’T define them. Won’t you share/ tell me what’s going through you.” I tried to let her share, I force, to let her speak….But she won’t…Percy mummers, “Margrit, get me in your arm tightly.” As I embrace her, she continues again, “Very soon, very soon, you’d be let known of everything.” A seconds later, ”Margrit why did you come?“ I remained silent???. She turned towards me and kissed me on my cheek……!!, Continue “ Margrite, you really are an angel. I am so happy to be with you... I Love you!” “What’ll you be doing all these days if you weren’t dating with me/ we didn’t met.”–Percy- I replied, “ I’ll be flirting around fooling myself.” Percy, smiled “are you flirting with me? But I don’t mind” laughed.The time of our ‘departure’ was nearing with the end of autumn, but I never knew all I know was….just the ‘beginning’. I still remember the day. it was a Sunday, we dated by the morning till the evening. I didn’t got tired of her and I didn’t got tired of writing to her. I know she was glad too. She did all the silly and childish things, she ran, she jumped, she laughed at all silly things as if all her pain were washed away and they no longer lingers in her. She also collected sea shells, rare shape stones……..etc and gifted me at the end of the day, saying “forget me never”. Percy calling me…….. ran towards me.. ”Margrit, you know I love pink color, why you never bring me pink roses.” ahhahh…. Margrit apologies, “yeahh.! I am sorry I never did…&.., I never … thought.???” added ...”I promise I’ll bring lots & lots of pink roses… tommor.” Percy, “I’ll be very glad to have them from your hand, babe, but I’m scared, if tomorrow never comes.” Looking me in the eye, she smile and turned away, beneath the tree. By now, sun was setting down and evening was hitting up. Percy call’d me “Margrit” as I kept standing still, “come, sit close to me”. Her voice was soft like and Angel’s, yet so melancholic. I could make it out, her heart was growing cold once again. Only God knew what was going through to me too?...I took out a shawl from her bag and covered her and kiss her on her cheek, forehead and eyes as she close them when I kissed her. And embrace her in my arm…. Percy,” Why didn’t you kiss me from before” added, “that’s the best I ever had and better than lots & lots of pink roses.” “why” I replied… she took a seconds and responded, “roses wither away, I can’t not prevent them from withering away but kisses don’t wither away.” added “If I had to choose between breathing and loving you I would use my last breath to tell you I love you”. She tried to smile but couldn’t. Tears roll down her cheek once again.At the end of the day, she promised to meet 3 days later. “I’d be busy,” Said she, and left. She knew, she never gonna see me again, never gonna date me again cos she knew, she had only a few hour left to live. That’s why she had been crying all these days. I never knew the reason/causes of her tears… Yet she never shared. I never knew, these happy moments would one day turn to a curse to me, and I never knew, behind these eyes would lie so much pain, so much tear and full of regrets.!! She betrayed me, she lie to me, when I didn’t..??? she made promises in vain cos she never came back again, while I kept waiting. I saw her never again, but all I could see was her grave beneath the tree where we once sat and dated. I never knew I could feel so much pain, and yet be so in love with the person causing it.She leaves with tears and now I am alone with tears, left out. Percy did something to me, Tears slipped down my cheek. I sat beneath the tree, beside her grave and wrote to her in pain and regrets, “Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you and me are never gotta be together in this life, is the hardest of it all.” ”You're the reason behind my smile, you're the reason behind my laughter, behind my happiness...because you've showed me what true love is all about? But I never thought you're also the reason for my tears and for experiencing the greatest pain that could ever happen to me...Yet still I’m so much in love with you.” “They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don't come back.” ”you did something to me I neither could define it, nor would I will ever forget it.”I knew deep inside my heart she won’t get them to read... So never I expected, never thought she’d speak to me again in this life… but that wasn’t true. She came and indeed, she talked to me in a different way, was that a dream or something else I couldn’t define. …, “Just when I thought that happiness could never be a part of me, that's when you came along and showed me happiness!”……. “You too did something to me I never could define, but I never could forget.”…….. “Never regret because it ended, but instead be glad that we met”… “I promise I’ll be with you every day being you Shadow.” Then, I woke up in the middle of the lonely night and found tears still rolling down my cheek...Now, I know one thing is true...; everything in life is temporary, because everything changes. That's why it takes great courage to love, knowing it might end anytime but having the faith it will last forever.............